Losing streak...

I watch a lot of sports and I feel like my life has become like that of a terrible team. Just when I decide to turn things around and attempt to do things another way so that our family could be happier, it comes back to sucker punch me. I planned a picnic at the beach as a surprise to only be informed a few days earlier that Jenevive was leaving for some alone time. I was so angry that I couldn’t say anything. I didn’t tell Judy because I knew she wouldn’t understand and would be sad. She found out that her mom wouldn’t be there on that day. I couldn’t look at her sad eyes and just spaced out towards the water. When and how does one come off of a losing streak?

“Dog days…”

Just what I needed. Woke up to find that the dog puked and shat all over the house. I don’t even let the dog lick me because of its germs – my wife didn’t even stop the dog from licking our daughter as if his drinking toilet water wasn’t enough to get her to stop him! So – ok – it was a big fight and then she tells me there’s a $400 vet bill and that I’m overreacting! What did I do to deserve this morning?!

I just can't help it..

A few days ago, I attended my niece’s wedding. I watched the ceremony with my soon-to-be-ex-wife at my side. Memories of our own wedding flashed in my mind as vows were made and rings were exchanged. It was a struggle to keep my thoughts from straying to the unhappy times of our marriage. I guess past experience caused my perspective to become jaded. Sometimes I had the urge to yell, “Hold on! Have you really thought about this?” Will I ever feel completely comfortable at weddings – or will they always feel like funerals?

I need guidance..

This divorce has shaken the foundation of this entire family. Sure, I'm in pain, but my daughter Judy is who I worry about most. She's visibly less happy. I’m trying not to be angry at Jenevive for creating this mess. How do I help Judy when I too am angry and upset?